Saturday, February 14, 2009

Detached and distracted

Stealing a format from Miss Mouse ( I miss you)
  • In the new house now.
  • Finally starting to really get into my job (oddly enough).
  • Missing people that don't remember me.
  • Missing people that meant way more to me than they ever knew.
  • Finding homes for all my crap, while getting rid of the real crap.
  • Once again realizing that my hubby means the world to me and I'd be lost without him.
  • Missing him intensely...

I have not had near the time to do anything that I have wanted or needed to. My depression has been kicking my ass lately. I have been finding new and interesting ways to terrorize my brain. I have been hiding out being angry with everything for fear that I will become too morose to function with normal society. My capacity in my new position allowing me a vent for my anger and a release for my apathy. And yet... the storm is upon me.

Clinging to my blessings and the reminders of the reality of things. Keeps most of it at bay. Still I find myself stuck in my own sickness. JM is my light. While I am not myself at the moment, I love you all. I am still here.

As Always, T