Trying for normal... again.

I want to share this picture. Not because it has anything to do with my post today, but only because this was a silly day. They were so funny and then the afternoon pirates were just as fun. Gongigi, Sadiki. Gongigi.

Kinda been weird for the last few months. Focusing on the tasks at hand when I can. Earning my peace and taking what I can get when I can't. Just when work gets sorted out I get another curve ball. We'll see how this plays out. Tired of drama queens and people that go out of their way to be hurtful to others. Will focus on the people and things that matter. House in order, loved ones appropriately valued and zero tolerance of BS. I will not allow the emotional wrecking crews of the world to tear me down. With their hateful words or needless gossip. By that same token I will not tear others down or damage them with my words or deeds or lack of both. My focus... is on what makes it important and of what perceived value is it and how will my input or lack there of affect it.

Detached and distracted

Stealing a format from Miss Mouse ( I miss you)

• In the new house now.
• Finally starting to really get into my job (oddly enough).
• Missing people that don't remember me.
• Missing people that meant way more to me than they ever knew.
• Finding homes for all my crap, while getting rid of the real crap.
• Once again realizing that my hubby means the world to me and I'd be lost without him.
• Missing him intensely...

I have not had near the time to do anything that I have wanted or needed to. My depression has been kicking my ass lately. I have been finding new and interesting ways to terrorize my brain. I have been hiding out being angry with everything for fear that I will become too morose to function with normal society. My capacity in my new position allowing me a vent for my anger and a release for my apathy. And yet... the storm is upon me.

Clinging to my blessings and the reminders of the reality of things. Keeps most of it at bay. Still I find myself stuck in my own sickness. JM is my light. While I am not myself at the moment, I love you all. I am still here.

As Always, T